me and me

sat together, confused and relaxed about it. Satified and indulging in it...

If you go, i stay with me. i contemplate, i speak, i am quite but i always be.

I no longer wonder what the future holds, i probably am the only person wo knows best and yet knows nothing at all on what will happen..I was a choice. I am making one.

Let go

I woke up and i knew i was unable to sleep with it anymore. I must not think it anymore. i must not think about it at all...this grudge, slowily walking it's way around my body, i want to spit it out!

Let go....i am letting go..but it keeps coming after me, there is no more regret there, i don't see it. but forgiveness hasn't been able to replace the void either, and so anger keeps pilling up coupled with his sad freind, sorrow. I want to leave this place of mind and never come back here...

He said: gorw up and be a woman. I know i hide in this childish immature mask where i ask ppl to serve me in appreciation of my simple perfect existence. It's not that true but maybe he real person i am angry at is me.

I am angry you let me down. I am angry at your bahviour. I am angry you were not nderstanding. I am angry you were not forgiving,. I am angry you lied to me. I am angry you left. I am angry at you for not loving me. Yes, Amal i am angry at you for all of those things...

I am angry because you wont just drop it and forget.


I will..i wil lstart another fresh chapter. A clean one, full of hope and aspirations to great things yet to come..More importantly, i am changing my theme to faith. I have faith in God, i have faith that given time and patience..things will get a lot better from here. I am grateful for everything God has given me so far, good health, education, guidance, a great job, a beautiful and supportive mother, my lovely sister, a believing family, great freinds and great ppl every step of the way. He gave me the will and strength to continue and to that and more i am grateful. I know i have been blessed and it makes me grateful and looking forward for more...


Breeeath..take a leap pf faith, relax and just breath. You know everything will be okay. You know there is no need to worry about anything at all...whatever went wrong willl correct itself into peace overtime..whatever is right, will bring itself overtime. I must just be conscious of choices and opportunities as they arise and who knows what this or that or what not will bring and do...
be accepting, be forgiving, be giving. be loving you and others.. :)
09..surprise me ;)

Too young? too ahead of your time.

I am troubled. And so i stop...If you just want to find an answer to those seemingly simple questions..what exactly does one turn to? Time. And while time was taking over me, getting wasted all over the place..i was unable to allow it to answer me, to give me guidance. I want to know and i want to know now! But you wont..

And what was the thing about stability and security..maybe they bring more unhappinnes? I don't know really..i was troubled. Wanting to be in a different place, wanting to turn back the hands of time..i just need to let it all rest and let it be.

Be, be there with me,