Let go

I woke up and i knew i was unable to sleep with it anymore. I must not think it anymore. i must not think about it at all...this grudge, slowily walking it's way around my body, i want to spit it out!

Let go....i am letting go..but it keeps coming after me, there is no more regret there, i don't see it. but forgiveness hasn't been able to replace the void either, and so anger keeps pilling up coupled with his sad freind, sorrow. I want to leave this place of mind and never come back here...

He said: gorw up and be a woman. I know i hide in this childish immature mask where i ask ppl to serve me in appreciation of my simple perfect existence. It's not that true but maybe he real person i am angry at is me.

I am angry you let me down. I am angry at your bahviour. I am angry you were not nderstanding. I am angry you were not forgiving,. I am angry you lied to me. I am angry you left. I am angry at you for not loving me. Yes, Amal i am angry at you for all of those things...

I am angry because you wont just drop it and forget.


I will..i wil lstart another fresh chapter. A clean one, full of hope and aspirations to great things yet to come..More importantly, i am changing my theme to faith. I have faith in God, i have faith that given time and patience..things will get a lot better from here. I am grateful for everything God has given me so far, good health, education, guidance, a great job, a beautiful and supportive mother, my lovely sister, a believing family, great freinds and great ppl every step of the way. He gave me the will and strength to continue and to that and more i am grateful. I know i have been blessed and it makes me grateful and looking forward for more...


Breeeath..take a leap pf faith, relax and just breath. You know everything will be okay. You know there is no need to worry about anything at all...whatever went wrong willl correct itself into peace overtime..whatever is right, will bring itself overtime. I must just be conscious of choices and opportunities as they arise and who knows what this or that or what not will bring and do...
be accepting, be forgiving, be giving. be loving you and others.. :)
09..surprise me ;)